i got an acting cic role at work! i started this journey since sept 2018. it was helluva ride. so much hard work was put into this role. terrible rosters, did not get enough sleep, accumulated fatigue, etc. but, it was all worth it right?
the real ass promotion exercise was happening again! of course, must apply right? i did! went through the computer tests, interviews and written tests again. again, so much effort and time were invested again. this time, i did not qualify.
in fact, i got the results 3 days ago. none of us took it very well. how come?
it does not matter how many flying hours you put in, it does not matter how tired you are, it does not matter how much commitment you invested in this company, it does not matter how much your colleagues like you, it does not matter if your company likes you, it does not matter if you had disciplinary lapses.
all that, do not matter when there is politics.
some of reacted sadly, angrily, and amused. what have we not done enough for this company?
i am sick and done. i am tired, im done with all the shitty rosters, im done with all middle of the night sleep disturbances. i just want to go back to the comfort zone and do the minimum. that is it for me,
i also realised that i hardly had time for myself and my loved ones. i dozed off twice while watching tv series with nich. i was so damn tired. i felt so bad being so tired all the damn time. hell, i was so tired from work i did not even have the time and energy to study for the promotion test.
i guess God wants me to have a different perspective of my job. why did i join the airline? because i want to put smiles on people's faces. yes, the promotion was there, but it isnt everything.
so done with shit. ok bye
